don't say i didnt apologize because i did.like,1094140983 times.sry if you think i was indulging in self-pity.because i wasnt.i just didnt want to make enemies. .i also wanted to say sorry to asilah.it's not my fault if i cannot clique with her right?2 long years i tried to like her i cant.so sue me,i've been putting on a facade all this while.my fault.haiyah.but wait hold up.don't say i didnt take the initiative to hike up a conversation with you ppl because i really tried.but you guys didnt wanna hear anything but just to go on saying my pettiness sucked.so i admit it was my fault.but did you ever ask yourself why i was acting this way?well let me give you a full length story.
i just didnt get you,farina.there you were bitching abt asilah(with me,i admit) and how you were saying you didnt like her to go out with you and stuffs.and 30 mins later where are you?you're hanging out with the exact person you were bitching about.ok la i admit.i was betraying asilah at the same time.eventho i didnt like her,i allowed her to follow anywhere we went.why you ask?i'm the type of person with a nature who cant say no to a person as i'd be guilty later.it's my nature.i dunno if it's the same for you.for sure,i'd love to know.there i said it.why are was being so petty.i dunno if it's the right word but that's it.i wasnt stopping you from having your own social circle.i didnt say you couldnt go and mix around,right?i just didnt understand.all i wanted was to know why.but you thought i was being childish coz i didnt like you going with asilah.correct me if i'm wrong.ask yourself,wouldnt you feel even the slightest bit of insecurity if the person is your bitching partner and then suddenly she goes to the person that the 2 of you just talked abt?well,i would.i did.sue me that i felt so insecure
i've typed that much.i have nth more to say.it's up to you to judge me.i cant say anything else.